Monday, July 27, 2015

Pebbles in your Shoes

We have all had this experience, we are walking or running (not me I don’t run) and we feel a small pebble in our shoes. I’ve been walking long enough lately to know, if I don’t deal with this irritant now I will regret it later. At this point I have two choices, I could stop and deal with it, or I could keep walking and let this little pebble cause me more and more strife as I go along. I decide that it’s not worth the trouble in the long run. So I pull over, take off my pack, take off my shoe and my sock and feel around in the dark for this pebble. I find it and put my sock back on, put my shoe back on and load up my pack and head on my way. I took the pebble with me, I wanted to see this tiny thing more closely. Surely it must be a diamond because it was so hard and jagged. Upon further observation and after rolling it between my fingers, I see that it is not a pebble. It’s actually clotted mud. Once I roll it around it begins to crumble in my fingers.
I began to think about my life and how the little things, when not dealt with properly can become an annoying hindrance in my path. Had I taken the time to clean out my shoes this morning I would not have needed to stop and deal with this hindrance now. Like sin, when it’s not dealt with promptly it can become a hindrance. Something little can become problems later on down the road. Many times we try to ignore those pebbles and pretend they aren’t there. Or kick our shoes around and move the pebble so it’s not a hindrance. We do this with sin too, we cover it up, move it out of the way so people can’t see it. But it’s still there! The only solution is to sit down uncover yourself and deal with the problem face on. Get that pebble/sin out of there. Then once we deal with it, there is another thing that MUST be done! You must put your shoes back on, get up and keep walking.
I think I’ve been dealing with the junk in my life now for too long. I need to get up and keep walking. It’s time to move on. In August I'm going on a 22 day 312 mile hike from Burgos, Spain to Santiago de Compostela, Spain. I’m hoping and praying this walk with help me to uncover all those pebbles I’ve got in my shoes so I get up and move on. I hope you can do this too!

Monday, May 25, 2015

I was made to be a single parent

Everything in my life has been preparing me for this moment.  The moment of being a single parent, and relying on God for everything.  This isn’t something I asked for, but it’s what I’ve been preparing for since I was a kid.  I didn’t even realize it.

When I was seven, my mom was severely ill.  She was in the hospital for 7 months.  My dad, essentially, was a single parent working a full time job, relying on God for healing for his wife, and relying on the help of others to help raise his kids.  Countless times my sister and I were shuffled from house to house, or came home to my Grandparents and no dad or mom.  Not once did I think my dad or mom were bad parents.  I knew they were doing the best they could with the hand they had been dealt and I was grateful for everything they did for us. I pray every day that my kids know I’m doing the best I can with the hand I’ve been dealt.

When I was married my husband was very adventurous in his career.  Many times he would throw caution to the wind and spend thousands of dollars on flipping a property.  Going through that with him has pushed me to be more daring in my own career.  Every single day we had food on our plates, our bills were paid and things worked out.  I needed to be taught that, because now I’m venturing to make my home business my ONLY business.  I’m trusting God to provide for me, and I know that He will.  It says in Philippians 4:19 “And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.” This venture will be difficult, I know, but just a few verses above this one, the bible says “I can do all this through Him who gives me strength.” (Philippians 4:13) I was specially told by God to do this venture, so to disobey would be more detrimental.  But this doesn’t stop me from worrying that I’ll fail.  I know that God told me to do this, I know he will provide for me, but I don’t want to fail Him.  I want to be diligent in every task He gives me, and I’m nervous. 

My ex-husband also taught me to be generous.  He, at one time, was the most generous person I knew.  He would give, even when it hurt.  I used to be so stingy with our money.  But he knew that God gave us this money and would give us more.  No sense being stingy with it.  Because of this I was able to learn to give till it hurts.  Which as a single parent that’s what you do, you give and you give and you give till it hurts.  Sometimes you give so much to your little ones, there is nothing left for yourself.  But that’s what God did for us.  Jesus came and gave his life, so that we could spend eternity with Him. He gave until it hurt and He’s teaching me every day what it’s like to do this. 

Being a single parent isn’t what I signed up for and it’s not something I want to do forever.  I hope and pray I will be married again and my husband will love me and my kids like his own.  I hope that someday this dream will come to be.  But for now, I was meant to be a single parent.  God has been preparing me for this, so He must think I can do it.  I will do this task the best I can, until He sees it fit to move me from this role. I just hope I can fulfill it with a worthy grateful, adventurous, giving heart. 

God has been preparing you for your moment too. Whether it's a single mom like me, or a single dad fighting for custody of his kids, or a stay-at-home parent, or just being single in a world of married people.  God has been preparing you for this moment.  Look back and be grateful for where He has brought you, and you will see you were made for this moment!  You can do this!

Sunday, May 10, 2015

The need to explain

I feel the need to explain what's happened since my last post in December 2013. Some of it's bad and some of it's good.  We're not going to dwell on the bad, we are just going to dwell on the good.  But the bad must be stated.

Just a few months after my last post, I found out my husband had been having an affair for the past 2 years.  We decided to get a divorce and our divorce was final last year.  That's all I'm going to say about that.

I've started my own Young Living Essential oil business and recently decided to quit my full time job and pursue my home business completely.  Young Living Oils have so completely changed my life that I must be honest, there will be posts here and there of me praising the oils and what they have done for me personally.

I'm looking forward to the future and for me to be writing again!  I hope you are too!